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Dangerous Rob is bad ass. read the bio and listen to the music!!! i enjoy journey thru the middle

 
no drinking, but i felt a little dirty afterwards.......

i haven't emailed the woman yet. i hope i get the nerve. i hope she can help and i hope that i can do whatever it is that i need to do - here's a scene for your mind - i
woke up from a strange dream this morning - i was in a small cramped room filled with film canesters, all of a sudden i feel my throat and lungs cramp up. i can't breath. i see smoke and flames, all the canesters are on fire. how? who? i don't know. i start to run - the door is very close, but out of the corner of my eye i see something in the corner - a figure in a folding chair. but who is it, and why aren't they running? i stop just for a second to see who it was, and i was utterly confused. it was my cat fezzik, sitting with one leg folder over the other lighting a ciggarette. he looked up at me and smiled.........i continued to run slamming the door behind me.........i always knew that he had it out for me.........but there was just one thing......i never knew he smoked.....then i woke up. i really didn't dream that, i thought of it when i woke up.

i think i'm gonna go get a job at the pizza place down the street now.

 
i'm thinking about school again. maybe i was meant to be an academic, joe hates school and never wants to go back, i - turn wouldn't mind it. i've always wanted to be a college professor or something like that. i think i would like to work in film archives or something. kathrine brought that up to me. there is a professor at UW that works with the national film archives, i might email her and see if i could talk to her about it.
it's 9PM and joe is just now getting out of his pjs...........funny stuff............well i'm gonna go see a wonderful stupid movie and maybe drink a lot!

 
Jessi, I think what it comes down to is we're the sort of people who need and crave creative outlets. Kam's resurgence happened when he finally realized that he had a lot more to offer to the world and to himself, and he offers that through his comedy.

For me, things began to turn around when my friend Jerry called and asked me to co-write a screenplay with him. I still felt horribly insecure about my life out here (I still don't know where it's going), but at least I had something into which I could channel my energy.

Even Vince has developed his blog and working out as a way of channeling his energy.

The truth is that I go to bed each night afraid that I'll never get a job, that I'll never become a television writer, and that I'll end back up in Oklahoma, a failure. But when I wake up in the morning, I check my e-mail, write some blog entries, apply for jobs, write some screenplay ideas, and say to myself, "this is where it all starts... even if no one will even return a stupid phone call- thanks for nothing, Craigslist." We're creative people; go create something and submit it to next year's Slamdance festival. Many of the entries I've seen make your Capstone project seem like Scorsese!

 
congratulations on your AFI assignments e

 
what's all of this new found confidence and energy i read about? can i have some? kam's all happy, and earnest is all happy. what's up dudes? i'm falling ever further down into a self pity spiral. i haven't looked for a job in days. the pizza place down the street is hiring.....wee hoo - so i can move from OK to WA to deliver pizzas. what a great idea. quit the one good job i'll ever have because i was depressed. smart.....yes i'm with my friends, and god how i apperciate them every day, they have no idea. but i need to do something instead of lying around here feeling sorry for myself. going back to school won't do anything. it's just another way to escape. i suppose i'm afraid of rejection. i am finding out what i'm made of and it's not much, some sort of gas you can burn away with a flame i think. i'm used to having everything handed to me, and now i'm having to look for it. it's harder than i thought, or i just suck more than i thought. i went to college! what has it gotten me? i can't even be an "administrative assisitant" why? because i don't have any excel or access experience. i was thinking about being a libriarian today. but you need a masters for that. and i don't know if i could even get into grad school if i wanted to....with my 2.8 gpa or whatever. i always think about the job i had in okc, and sometimes i wish i hadn't left it. but then i think about how it was killing me and how there was no room for me to move around there unless i stayed for 20 years. i quit because it was defining me as a person and i didn't want that. but now not having a job is doing the same thing. i need to figure out what i want. i need a middle ground. but i don't have middle grounds. i'm either angry or not, sad or not, happy or not. i'm too black and white. why? i dunno, maybe i'll never know. i'm starting to think that pizza delivery is the best i'll ever do. as long as joe gets a good job, right? no! i can't live through him, that puts to bed the reason why i came out here, to live for me, no one else. i've seen some good movies while i've been here. i've eaten some good food, what else have i done? gone on 2 job interviews. one sent me a letter, the other never called me back either way. i'm going to go see jackass the movie tonight.......just to have some mindless - beat up your dad - humor. i like it now. i figured out that as long as you realise it's okay to laugh, it's really funny. that's the passionate realist in me i suppose. i need for that jessi to get in herre and get it in gear! in college i was so free and had no worries, except for the occasional lapse of memory - do i have a class today? did i drop said class or not? where is this so called class??! why did i schedule this class on Friends night? why can't i spell? it was always the same little worries. why do i worry so much now? it's not like too many things are different. i don't have school, that's about it. but when we go to school our ENTIRE lives, it's a bit of a shock. i'm proud of my friend chris carter - some of you might know him.........he's the guy that couldn't hold a job or a class to save his life. smokes more ciggarettes than any one human should, eats really poorly, and a good guy. but he has finally found something that he likes and actually wants to stick with. what you ask? computers. he's taking all of these certification classes so he can be a tech somewhere. he's gonna move to houston - if his girlfriend lets him - and get a job so he can be near his dad - who is sick. i'm proud of the C.C. i hope that one day i'll be proud of me. but something's gotta change - or snap - whichever is fine with me.

 
I'm doing my first assignments for the AFI this weekend!

 
Bowling For Columbine was great! Funny and insightful. The Welfare to Work section and the one about the little girl in Michigan who had been shot seemed to stretch out the otherwise focused movie, but still I've gotta hand it to the man. That's his best, yet.

The only problem I had was that he refused to acknowledge that the other countries he talked about had gun control but also had other kinds of violence to make up for their lack of gun violence, specifically knife attacks. Also, we may live in fear thanks to the news, but the news wouldn't cover violence if it didn't exist, and if it didn't cover the violence that did exist, wouldn't it be remiss? Ed Horowitz told us that.

My favorite thing about the movie was that it forced me to ask those kinds of questions, not only about the movie but also about society. Sure the supporters of the Right to Bear Arms sound silly, but if you've ever seen a country where the government rules with absolute authority, squelching dissent (like Iraq), then the importance of that amendment becomes clear, instantly. By the way, wasn't that line by Terry Nichols's brother great? "I believe the pen is mightier than the sword, but you must always keep a sword for when the pen fails." ... That Columbine footage was absolutely chilling. I didn't realize how awful it must have been.

 
holy crap - i just saw the bowling for columbine! it was so great! i learned many things but the main ones were these - the U.S. might be an alright place to live, but it's really scary and it seems to be a ticking BOMB! and i'm moving to canada!

 
Pavane pour une infante défunte by Ravel or Sinead O'Connor's All Babies
I don't know what my favorite songs is! I think the one by Ravel might be one of the top three, definitely. It's fun to listen to and fun to play

 
my song would have to be Everything In Its Right Place by Radiohead...................or the Blue Oyster Cult's Don't Fear The Reaper.........Joe says his would be Bukets of Rain by Bob Dylan................but remember he IS singing songs off the soundtrack to Grand Theft Auto 3............

 
My favorite song might just be Rhapsody In Blue. I think I could listen to that over and over. Either that or Rock Box by Run DMC... Hmmmm, tough call.

The thing about P-DL is it approaches cinematic perfection! When was the last time you experienced as much suspense as you feel waiting for Adam Sandler to screw up things with Emily Watson? You know what heightens the suspense? It's all the accidents that happen around Adam Sandler; you just keep waiting for the ultimate accident, and you're happy when he doesn't deliver that accident! That is the result of someone who knows how to make a movie. Signs came close to that level of skill, but P-DL is a pinnacle, eclipsing Magnolia.

The reason that the movie seems rushed is that he doesn't give us the "romance" until the movie is half-over. Most romantic comedies set up the romance from the beginning. I really could go on and on about the movie. Did you read the article in the LA TIMES about the decline of American Cinema? I think this movie, alone, rebuts everything this woman had to say.